Thursday, May 18, 2017

Feeling the Monotony

It seems that life for me has become stagnant... doing the same things over and over... I'm really not content with what is happening with my life. I'm feeling the monotony, the status quo... I need a change real soon or else, I think I'll go craaazzzy.... LOL

I am working hard to get to Canada to attend my brother's wedding... I'm praying for the best and am hoping that I will get there soon enough.

Financially speaking, we are still on the same boat, with a few blessings here and there, an answered prayer here and there, I know I need to be content with the life we have, with what we have, but if I have to be honest, I want more.. I need more. I need to push harder to get to where I want and where I want my kids to be at, at the same time... God is good, I know He listens and I know that I will get there soon enough.

I'm trying out new things... and hopefully I will get to that special niche God has for me soon... Let's pray for the best...

Sorry guys.. this is just me rambling on.. my head is so full that I don't know which way to go now, so I want to try to organize my thoughts and hopefully, get there (AGAIN??? ) soon enough...

See I really want to go places and explore life.. but responsibilities hinder me and I know that there are things that needs to be prioritized, but I will get there soon enough...God is good I know he will guide me. I know He is directing my path and I will go where He sends me...

Sunday, April 30, 2017

Make Your Home Your Refuge

Today begins the Novena masses for the upcoming Parish Fiesta (May 9) and Fr. Jeff Quintela con-celebrated with Fr. Jigs over the mass...

His homily was very enlightening.... really gave me some thoughts to ponder. The gospel today was The Road to Emmaus, where 2 disciples walking away from Jerusalem met Jesus and they didn't recognize him until the breaking of the bread... and to bump the theme of the Fiesta, communion of communities and the thought of the day, peace within the family, he said some very profound things that made me think as well...

Our family isn't perfect, but it should be our refuge... home is where we should feel right, well, at home... where we can go when we feel down, where we can go when we're happy, a refuge... The home should be the place we want to run to every time. It should be where we want to be. It should be where we find our most peace,  the embrace of those we love and the sanctuary where we can always go to.

He said that our home is our first government, where rules to be followed are set forth and where we also got our first consequence for wrong done. it is our first school where we are taught, how to properly conduct ourselves among other people, how to become a good person overall. The home is also our first church, where we are first taught to pray, where we first learn about God, about Jesus.

I find everything he says is true and that there are a few areas where we need to work on... a few instances when the home isn't the refuge its supposed to be.There are a few kinks that we need to iron out, a few things we would need to rethink our strategies upon.

God is good and His mercy endures forever..

I don't have a perfect family, far from it perhaps as I myself am such an imperfect being but God through His infinite goodness will remain merciful and by His Grace, I know one day, my home will be the refuge we all deserve. 

Wednesday, March 01, 2017

Write to Write

Okay... so yet again, I decided to write and write and write... whatever thought comes to mind, I should write.. get my creative juices flowing yet again.... It's not as easy or as simple as I wish since I think all the juice has been sipped out of me but I will keep trying, I will keep persevering until this dream of mine finally becomes a reality...

It is only sad though that I feel like the people I love are suffering because of this dream, because of my inactivity, so with the Lord's guidance, grace and mercy, perhaps one day I will finally make this dream of earning from a blog a reality.

I need to get my faculties straight, plan ahead or lest I find myself in a deep hole once more and just a step away from my goal. I want to do this... do this for good...

God help me!

Tuesday, February 21, 2017

Thoughts on PREX

Last weekend was something...

I joined an PREX seminar - Parish Renewal Experience...Wow! the experience was overwhelming to say the least. It was a roller coaster ride, laughter, tears, sorrow, pain even but at the end of the weekend I feel rejuvenated.

I was hesitant to attend at first, thinking it was another one of those dragging, boring, religious things, but I'm glad that I was proven wrong and I felt a renewed sense of Christianity, something that everybody I think can benefit from. It is a good experience and something I hope to share with my hubby soon.

I discovered a lot of things about myself and some of the people I work with in church. It was enlightening and I gained if only a minute understanding of these people and maybe I can put that to good use when I work with them inside the parish

Friday, February 03, 2017

My Journey in Faith Part 2

Yea, so let's continue...

As I've said, I've altogether stopped praying. I didn't became an atheist or anything like that, but I felt like it was such a burden praying... I was too busy with life to even bother with it. So, I prayed whenever I felt like I needed some help, some answer to a need, but never earnestly and never really seriously.Prayer was just a last resort, somewhere to go to when I feel like there's nothing else to go to, when I think I need a miracle of some sort.

And of course, not all prayers are answered the way we want, so when I don't get what I want, I ask God why He wouldn't give me that particular request, even questioned His existence at one point, or thought that maybe because I'm not as prayerful or as "religious" as some people, my prayers weren't heeded.And that downward spiral just propelled me towards a more unprayerful life, thinking that God only listens to those who are religious, go to church every Sunday and all those sort of things, and boy was I WRONG, OH SO WRONG.

I have learned in the course of this short life that God DOES EXIST. HE IS EVERYWHERE and He listens to every word we utter, especially in prayer, but HE IS ALL KNOWING, ALL POWERFUL AND ALL MERCIFUL. He knows the RIGHT TIME to give us what WE NEED and WHAT WE ACTUALLY NEED, not what we think we need. It's sometimes a difficult concept but I have learned, and I know that God directs us and tries to continually show us the right path, where we should go, what we should do, but sometimes we are too blinded by our own pride, our own desires that we fail to see the LOVE and ABUNDANT LIFE He so earnestly wants for us...

How I came about that realization??? Next on my Journey in Faith... My Journey in Life
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