Friday, December 19, 2014

Ponderings... Musings

It's been a while since I last posted here.. well mainly because I found a site that pays up what I share, so been posting a lot there but alas, all good things must come to an end or so they say... with a good number of 'redemptions' unpaid, I'm afraid the site is all but lost for me. I wouldn't wanna keep on posting there and pile up payments that don't get sent right? Anyways, so back to my good old blogger...

I have somethings planned for this one and hopefully if things go well, I'll even get to give this site its own domain.. now wouldn't that be wonderful. Well, yea... as I said its been a while I've been busy and now I got a full time job (still online and still work at home - is there anything better?) so I've been a bit busy and haven't had the luxury of time in writing but I want to give myself this luxury as writing gives me the release I sometimes so badly need, help me organize my thoughts and get a plan of action into gear.

Oh don't get me wrong, I'm still in the throngs of confusion, there is still a lot of things on my mind that I'm not sure of. I still am not sure where I'm going or where all the thoughts come from, but one thing is for sure, I refuse to give in to this despair I'm feeling, to this dread I keep feeling can fall at any moment. I try to fill my head with positive things but the more I do so, I realize the more I go down.. perhaps because positive thoughts alone cannot solve the dilemma I'm in, positive thoughts alone cannot solve my problems.

I need to move.. I need to plan and organize but yea... it's easier said than done. I need to focus I know. I need to learn to keep my head and thoughts in check, to not over think, to not let despair get a grip.How? that's still a thought that needs to form, but with God's help I know, everything will come to pass and peace will reign in my heart at last...

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