Monday, April 25, 2005

Ramblings!

This past week has been both heaven and hell for me.

Heaven.
I have my little boy Raiden who continues to be a source of joy for me. Looking at him, at how handsome he is and how fast he is growing, he is only 2 weeks 2 days old. When he smiles, I melt.
There's Hannahs who's antics never fails to make me smile. Those cute little poses she does and her witty comebacks when you talk to her. Her singing bouts when we're about to sleep or when she sings along with the television.
Then there's Rhandy, my hubby, who more often than not pisses me off, but is always there to lend a helping hand whenever I need it. Even when he didn't get much sleep, he wakes up when I ask him too, take care of either Raiden or Hannah when it's needed and don't complain even when I'm cranky and throws fits.

Hell.
It's been hell coz physically I'm not really upto it, I feel so tired and sickly, I had fever last week. Plus it's so frustrating for me, not to be able to breastfeed as much as I want to, but I'm happy that Raiden is able to breastfeed even for a little while at least he got some milk from me. It also hard since I have been on an emotional roller coaster, with various highs and lows during the day. I don't know if its from hormones due to my recent pregnancy or i'm just really emotionally unstable (hahaha). Plus being cooped up in our room really makes me feel depressed. Seeing just the 4 corners of our room most of the day can really get to you sometime.

Well , I guess as of now life is good for me. I'm still thankful for the life I have. And for my husband who's constantly by my side and always understanding even when even I don't understand myself.


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